Last night I was sitting in my room, unable to sleep, and my brain was moving at a million miles per hour. "Make a list of things you love!" it said hastily, and so I instantly snatched my computer, opened a blank word document, and typed away at the things that make me...me! This is what I came up with...:
Things I love:
Spray
paint
Sunshine
Laughter
Acceptance
without needing to change
Hugs! :D
Butterflies
Snow
Sparkles
in peoples eyes
Breaking
the seal on a brand new chapstick tube
Snuggling
up in a warm blanket
Doing
spur of the moment adventurous things
Counting
the stars
October
18th (I don’t know why! I just love it!)
The
feel of freshly sharpened blades
Being
a total dork
Long
talks
Staying
up as late as I want with a new book
Falling
asleep reading
Paris
My
memories
My
friends
Those
moments when you know you can do anything without being judged
City
lights at night
Racing
my dog ;)
Singing
off key with the bass turned up and the windows rolled down <3
Traveling
Imagining
Sword
fights with my siblings
Imaginary
land! (Nadine, Beth, Reuben....you know what I’m talking about)
Being
inspired
Listening
to music
Cliff
jumping...the thrill of falling and being weightless
I realized lately that I was in a hole. I haven’t felt
happy, looked happy, or acted happy. I have my reasons...but I was starting to
notice that I was getting a bit depressed. I couldn’t relax anymore. I couldn’t
sleep because I had so much on my mind.
“Alright Lord...what’s going on?” I tried to figure it out,
and failed. I kept thinking “I need to get out of this valley! I need to breath
a little bit. Relax.”
The next day, I found out I had an orthodontist appointment
by myself in Jackson at 9am. I reluctantly calculated the gas and the fact that I would have nothing to do all day. I always hated being by myself. I wondered if I could hang out in a coffee shop or
something in Jackson, but I didn't feel like sitting by myself doing nothing. Then a friend
sent me this text:
‘You take a ‘Melanie day’ tomorrow. Go do something fun and
stupid and different. :) Go make a day of it.”
It sounded so adventurous, and so...on a spur of the moment decision,
I decided to take his advice. I have never been happier...it was exactly what I needed! The Lord new all I needed was a little break to be myself again. My ‘day to myself’ was filled with
adventures. Here they are...:
I drank water from a waterfall
I explored roads I’d never been on
I read in the middle of a forest perched atop a huge rock
I prayed
I ignored school and just relaxed
I got my hair trimmed (so girly!)
I wrote an entire chapter in my novel
I took pictures of whatever I wanted wherever I wanted
I did a cartwheel in a stream
I enjoyed
I imagined
I explored.
And then....when I was driving back home, this song came on
the second I sat down in my car (KLove!). I love this song!
The day ended with my favorite drink (Huckleberry White Hot Cocoa), a crackling fire, snuggling up in a blanket, and watching the recorded Presidential Debate (and discovering I am getting sick. Maybe next time I won't drink waterfall water ;) )
Remember to make the most of your day, every day.
After all...this is the first day of the rest of your life! <3
